| May. 13th, 2005 @ 04:19 pm (no subject) |
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Current Mood:  creative
Current Music: I Want to be Alone- Green Day
well there is only 20 something days of school left, not counting the weekends of course, but if you do it's like 36 days. for anyone who reads this, but hasn't seen me in the past 4 days i got an hair cut and that is putting it mildly. i had 13 inches cut off! and if you're wondering i donated it to locks of love.
i leave in another month and a 1/2 for new hampshire which i still can't totally grasp. hell, an whole month of camping! it's going to be totally awsome. i'll also be going to tennessee this summer or is it kentucky? i can never remember, but they're pretty much the same any way except one has the huge cave, that's apprently one of the nicest ones in the country.
what else am i doing this summer? well how 'bout the fact of finally turning 18. it feels like it's never going to happen. i'll be getting a job when i come back in august so i can pay for my car that i will be getting when i do turn 18.
on to the issue of school. with there only being so many days of school left i find it very hard to concentrate, i find myself starring out the window more often then paying attention. how this may be good in some people's eyes this is not good in mine because not paying attention adds up to not doing well in school. not doing well equals not having all A's and B's in school. C'S ARE NOT AN OPTION!!!
i find myself falling more and more into the world of the fashion awareness. i've been layering my clothes, i notice who has designer bags, and speaking of bags i find my obsession growing again, it's only going to be a matter of time before i'm spending all my money on them again. that and clothes. i swear i have an endless supply of clothes yet i feel like i never have anything to wear and i'm sure who ever is reading this does not care about my fashion issues. probably doesn't care about anything i wrote so far.
question how does this quote sound?
"when i looked at you i saw the world, but now i only see myself." */\*
let me know if you understand it.
this journal entry is my way of delaying my chores, cleaning my room, and the horror... writing the research paper that is due monday.
prom is tonight and he's going. he said he's only going with a friend, but who knows. i want to know what he thinks, more importantly what i think... do i or don't i? i know who i do, but that will never happen, he's with her, my friend or someone who i once called my friend but we haven't talked in so long that we're strangers now. doesn't matter though, we're friends, besides i don't think there is anything i could ever do any way.
i got my people's choice award last night. it was mrs.wang. she gave a nice little speech about me. there were a lot of pictures. she really is a nice woman. the things those people in class so are so horrible, how could any one ever be so cruel? i wonder how she can still make herself come to school knowing she has to face that class.
art. wow, i could go on about this for pages, but i will make it simple. changing the substitute art teacher half way through the year could of been the stupidest thing the school has ever done.
homeroom has been pretty boring this year. we never do anything. and i heard she(ask for name if you want) is going to be in it next year which will make it seem forever because she always talks about how she does everything for the south homeroom and no one in it does anything. i can't stand it. though her friend. tyler i think. now he's cute. though when he talked to me last night he was making some pretty dumb jokes.
i haven't talked to some people in awhile. i don't even know if they still read this, but if you do, i miss you. they always say when you enter high school you change, you become a different person and for a lot of people that's true. but for some we hold on to who we were that very first day and really never let go. we maintain ourselves, while others lose themselves into the experiences that you're suppose to have in high school. i know you lost yourself, but you can always come back, we, i will be here to throw you a life raft when you're ready.
i'm amazed actually on how happy i am these days. this has possibly been one of the best years of my life. i have met a lot of people that i knew. see if you can make sense of that.
geez i should be writing my paper with how much i'm writing now. well i'll leave you with this food for thought, it never ends 'til it begins. |
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